Curl Up and Hide

I should've expected it. The list went dead-silent after that mail went out.

I have to wonder if it's even worth trying any more. This kind of crap just wears me out. Part of me wants to jump up and scream, "Unless you have TS, whatever you're thinking, that's not it!" But a bigger part of me is regretting I ever reached out in the first place to try and make friends. I just want to curl up and hide.

I know that's not the answer, either. Isolating yourself because others can't deal with you doesn't address the root issue. I wouldn't be doing myself or anyone else any favors that way. And yet, when placed in a threatening situation, what creature on this planet dosn't have the urge to go somewhere secret and safe?

Only time will tell if others can get past this, or if this will be the decisive moment that gets another door slammed in my face. It won't be the first time and certainly won't be the last. But what a waste.

And people wonder why I'm reclusive. Just wake me up when all this is over.